good times

Just thought to share some view thoughts..

Still enjoying my job. Learning new things and meeting a lot of new people :) I feel like I am in a right place at the right time.
I have been mostly working and the weekend I just rested.. and I was interviewed to Viikkolehti - magazine. Hoping that it would get good response and God could speak to people through that. I also attended a church service on Sunday with Sisko and Kauko. It was interesting.. it is this new place (at least for me) and still kinda small. It felt good to be there but I am still looking for my own place.

On Thursday I am planning to make some munkki for Vappu. And Talvikki is coming to visit and we prob attend VappuGospel.. good times :)

I love my job!!

learning

just with quick words wanted to tell you that my practical time started today.. Of course I was nervous and excited and couldn't sleep last night.. Time went well over and I had a good day.. Observing mostly but still.

Tomorrow I have a long day because they are open till 6pm.. and I will get there 9am..

but it's okay.. I am learning new things :)

Today I was introduced to my brothers girlfriend. It was nice to meet someone for the first time. This was first time ever to meet any of my brothers girlfriends so good times :)

After today, I am feeling really tired and ready to go to bed.. so good night and sleep tight zzzZZZzzzZZZ

happy thoughts

Just wanted to celebrate here that the exams are over now!! for a while I mean.. :D

In the morning we had the Swedish presentation and after that the exam.. I was afraid but I have this little hope inside of me that I will pass..

In the evening I had the exam of Social security basics - course.. Also having a little place inside of me saying that I passed.

I know, I didn't read that a lot during the weekend but I am happy that I found the refreshing joy this weekend and energy :) so I appreciate that more..

anyway, tomorrow morning last tutorial session and handing in couple assignments.. then couple days off and practical time it is.. yay.. going after graduation.. :D

Blessings to the rest of the week!

S

saturday night live

it's weekend again. i should be working on my school assignments but feeling really tired of doing.. and i shoudl be reading to my exams but that's not happening..

so last two nights i have gone to these midnight walks with my friend.. we made a decision that from now on, on every Tuesday evening 7pm we will go for a walk together. That's how we both will get exercise.. :) We had fun.

Yesterday the day was really busy too. I practised my presentation with my partner and then went to the store shopping some Cherry Coke!!! it has arrived to Finland.. woot woot. althou it's limited edition, but still.

then i had the chance to go to Kouvola again with other friends and we showed some Kouvola to this French guy.. althou there wasn't that much to see xD

I started a cakeblog couple days ago and updated it yesterday.. I am not expecting to have a lot readers but maybe my friends could enjoy it.

I was thinking that I could start to write about things from Bethel in this blog.. Doing that would encourage me to go deeper with God and just re-live in a way of those teachings I have learnt.

So much going on at the moment.. but life seems good today :)

Be blessed!

Always at school and on computer.. hmmm.

"Are you always here at school and always in front of these computers??"

A question that one of our exchange students asked me today :D

I was there in the morning and also in the afternoon.. I know, I spend too much time on computer but what else can I do here.. (I know, there's a lot of things but right now at least I cannot make any)..

Anyway, I went to school and we had our last tutorialgroup meeting in this spesific course.. YAY. It's almost over.. Then we combined our feedback from yesterday and send. It went to our teacher.. Only the last exam is coming in the future, well, next week to be more exact.. I should read but my reading skills are little rusty today ( I have started thou, in both books.. ) .

I had some free time at school.. I was planning to write my self-value-report but look, didn't happen.. that's a surprise.. What did I do during that free 4-hour-period.. Well, let's see.. I looked up some information for Kela. Then, I went to eat lunch ( I rarely do that at school) and after that I read the newspaper and read little while to my hygienepass-test. (but most time I was playing facebook-games on computer.. once an addict, always an addict.. :D) But I trusted more to my own sense that I will make it.. and in the end: I did! I passed the test. Only one mistake from 40 questions, which is really good.. And that one mistake was really dumb mistake too.. anyway, day was long but not over..

My sister took me to Prisma later in the afernoon, and also I was able to spend quality time with my nephew who is 17yrs old tomorrow.. Wow, I am getting old too.. But at Prisma I was able to buy some Cherry Coke that they sell now in Finland.. I think I mentioned while in States that that was mostly the only drink I drank while there.. I like it :D and now it has arrived to Finland.. wohoo!

Tomorrow:

Swedish, preparing for the test and presentation with minna.

Doing group work about some things ;) really helps you to understand right.. haha.

Practical period info

Moona-course, last time.. woot woot.

I am still thinkin about if I would go to Kouvola tomorrow night, they have this Youth Thursday there, I think it's tomorrow, second thursday of the month.. But I just don't want to discuss about the incident where I was forgotten to Järvenpää.. what to do, what to do.. well, I guess I should know that if a guy forgets to pick me up, he will also forget that this even ever happened.. :D but I will always remember it.. isn't life amazing..

talk to you later!

tuesday's tune

Finally it's over.

Today at school we had had these seminar works that we had to present to others. For some reason some other classes had signed classrooms for them so we had to squeeze two groups in one class.. so I didn't have to present my work by myself. Although I felt so unprepared when I went to school this morning.. I know, it's my own fault bc for some reason I haven't had the energy to do anything extra.

This afternoon, on my way home, I started to wonder that maybe it's because of my painkillers that I have to take for my back pain. Maybe those killers are causing some tiredness and disables me to do more than just what I have to.

For example, last night I realized that tomorrow we have this group session at school and I need to write an essay about ethics. :D yep, even the subject sounds like something I should have started to think about a lot earlier.. Anyway, life is good.

There's always HOPE - as my t-shirt says to me and others.

I went to the post office to get a package that I ordered last week. I got it and excited to start trying new things... :)

Jesus, give me energy to finish the day and homework and all that is included.

Spring is coming, it's raining outside.

"Be who you are, don't change. Don't try to change. Accept yourself as who you are and who He made you to be!"

update

I think I need to write here more often.. so that all of my writing aren't just when I feel frustrated or having a bad day and need to get things out of the system.. There are good days too, now there's just a lot of little things that combined together and result is mess..

But life already looks brighter.. now I just should practice my teaching for tomorrow.. I had the whole day but it's almost gone :D hahah..

Going after dreams that was revealed again more clearly

Today is a new day. That's the truth and a fresh thought for today.

I have been praying for new revelations and a freshing joy to come. I feel like for a while I have been stuck for some reason. As if I don't know what I want or what to do. But then when I talk with my friends and share my dreams and visions, I am able to do that. I have those dreams and visions for my life, for my generation, for my church. Just some how I have forgotten those things. As if this cloud of darkness would be on the way so that I couldn't see those things clearly.

Living here, in a small city and church is not close by and when I go there I want something more than that. I know I am changer. I am revivalist and wherever I go I will change the atmosphere but I alone cannot change peoples 20-year-old attitudes and mindsets.

I guess what I am trying to say and even realize this day is that just being close with God and trusting Him with everything, is all I need to do.

And for some reason He has sent me here, to be in this place.

My cry has been so long to really grow into a great revivalist. I am shamed to admit that I don't behave like that always. Even this last weekend God brought these great opportunities to me to live like a revivalist. Pray for healings and see signs and wonders to happen. In my head I heard these words, pray for him, pray for him. What did I do. Nothing. I didn't ask him if I could pray for him and for the healing. I am so sorry. For some reason this something came on me and I couldn't do it. and I already felt awful after the moment.

My prayer for today is to have courage in situations like that. Even with Christian people.

When my friends from Bethel ask me what's going on among people and youth, I don't even know. I haven't been able to go to church that often. Biggest reason for that is that I am still looking for a place that I would burn to go and feel loved. I am so excited to see Bill Johnson to come to Finland and the team with him. I am just afraid to reveal to them that through me there hasn't been that many people that has the fire for more.

I know that during summer a lot of things happened and some people are going wild after God and are encouraged by what I have shared in my testimony. I know I am blaming myself but I am just expecting more from myself. I thing this is a place of growth in a lot of different areas.

Courage and power and more intimacy with God. That's the key.

I know that right now I am really hard on myself but seeing the fire on others and what God is doing in them, makes me want more and wondering why am I not there or even more.

Earlier this afternoon I was reading a blog by my friend and I was so amazed how she wrote things and shared her thoughts about God and her vision and dreams. That reminded me so clearly about how I have those dreams in myself too, I just need to wipe the dust off.

There's also a chance to go to St. Louis in September. Joyce Meyer's Women Conference is there. I felt that it might be the thing for me to go there. Maybe. Let's see what God is doing this spring and summer.

Dreams are big and just waiting to see them happening. Go after your dreams!

no words to discribe

So, I learned today that still I am not responding well to disappointments.. or maybe I just don't handle those that well. at least not in here in Finland. I am not sure if I ever will be completely able to respond well to situations that will suck.. but let's just say that today wasn't my best.

With couple words, Easter went well and the whole event went well. I was busy at the info desk and also being charge of the channels and organizing all that. I was running around during Saturday but when I finished, this feel of relief went through me.

So today my ride home forgot to tell me that he already left.. and it sucked. and when these kind of situations come, tears are close by.. even thou I guess there's no reason to cry but that's just my way of handling the situation.. (who forgets things like that.. )

So when I realized what had happened, I just wanted to go and packed my stuff and hopped on a train.

Also one other thing is bugging me. I have been waiting for almost a month that my brother could find the chance to tell me that he is in a relationship with this girl. It has a history behind all this but at least for me, I don't want to read this kind of news from Facebook.. Especially when I have thought that we have a good relationship and we have said that this kind of news we will share openly to each other.. So that has been hard for me.. to wonder what's wrong that even my own brother isn't able to tell me that he has a girlfriend and they are serious about it.. Everybody else seems to know about it.. but not the family.. Maybe this is what it feels to be loved..

Easter started well, ended not so well.. To be honest, there's still tomorrow to help this Easter to be better.. although there should be something amazing to happen so that this feeling of suckness and sadness would leave me.

anyway, hoping that everyone else enjoyed their Easter.

love, S